so what happened?  everyone wants to know.

i don’t know.  he doesn’t really know.

there are a lot of things.  the distance, my children, his self-doubt.  my insanity.  his insanity.

i’ve been over this every day for the last five months.

it would have been better had we parted acrimoniously.   we did not.  in fact, we are still best friends.  and it kills me.